Nine years have passed
Since Margaret died
Nine years
19th September
I lived in grief for quite some time
More than I care to remember
I struggled to find a purpose
Or a meaning to go on
I wrote of how I missed her
A sad unending song
I lost my energy for life
Her death brought death to me
I lived alone
I ate alone
I wrote alone
Just me
Then a strange thing happened
I took ill quite bodily
Pulmonary embolism
Could have been the death of me
Doctors got me sorted
Tablets now for life
Then back to quiet living
But living without my wife
Then I plunged to darkness
Depression came along
Took me in charge and flattened me
What am I doing wrong?
Tablets from the doctor
Reluctant I at first
But grateful now
They settled me
When I could have burst
Then I found a counsellor
This a healing time
I am forever grateful
Out of darkness climb
Suddenly all is light again
The joys of life engage
Two grandsons gifted now to me
I am turning a new page
I find my reason to go on
To live as I should live
Write on my website every day
Things I want to give
Share with others what I’ve found
Wise or strange or funny
Just give the world the benefit
Not interested in money
And Margaret – well I think of her
But not in sadness now
I think of her that lovely girl
Alive in heaven now
I bless God that I met her
I know she is living still
In a world beyond my wildest dreams
We will meet again – we will
Brian Fahy
16 September 2021
Erris Poetry 